"Joy is the kind of feeling a woman has when she lays the words down on paper just so, or hits the notes al punto, right on the head, the first time. Whew. Unbelievable. It is the kind of feeling a woman has when she finds she is pregnant and wants to be. It is the kind of joy a woman feels when…
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In April of 1958, a 22 year-old Hunter S. Thompson wrote a letter on the meaning of life when asked by a friend for advice. What makes his response all the more profound is the fact that at the time, the world had no idea that he…
SPOILER ALERT: The following blog may contain details you may wish to avoid reading, in case you haven’t read or seen TFIOS.
I just got home from seeing ‘The Fault in Our Stars’. I have not read the book, and I went to see it by myself, because I heard it was a sob fest. And it was. I was holding back tears quite a lot. The premise of the story isn’t unlike other movies in which cancer plays a prominent role. What is special about it are the famous quotes I’ve been reading since the movie came out. Quotes such as:
"I fell in love the way you fall asleep; slowly, and then all at once."
"You don’t get to choose if you get hurt in this world… but you do have a say in who hurts you."
"The world is not a wish-granting factory."
"You see, you put the killing thing right between your teeth, but you never give it the power to kill you. A metaphor."
… to quote a few. And though these quotes so poetically seem to describe exactly what you feel throughout the course of this movie, it’s also the realizations you have between the great quotes about love that make it worth watching. There was a time I used to dream about the kind of love Hazel and Augustus had for each other. The kind of love that consumes you, the kind of love that makes you feel safe, with a partner who actually expresses, verbally, just how much you mean to them. Who expresses what a treasure to them you are. And I don’t mean your parents, because let’s face it, that’s their job. To be with someone who loves you so much that they actually want to get to know the way you think, to ask you questions no one else thinks to ask, to reveal parts of yourself that you even forgot you had.
Because the truth is this: Death happens right in the middle of life. I don’t mean halfway between 1 and 100, I mean, you never know when it’s coming. It could be 5 minutes from now. It could be 5 decades from now. When I was reminded of this while watching this movie, I started to cry. I know I stress over life a lot; am I in the right career field, should I even have a career at all, should I just leave the entertainment industry to go build homes in India, and what’s the point of all this stressing if none of it is going to amount to anything anyway?
Humans are constantly evolving and everyone has a unique perspective on life. I have come to a new realization today that I do not believe in a God “out there” that controls everything. I don’t believe this at all. I believe that all there ever is, ever was, ever will be is energy. There is a higher consciousness I believe everything in all the existing universes shares. I think life is all interdependent. Every single choice we make affects our own lives, and consequently, all of life. I don’t think we could ever fully know the consequences of our choices until we’ve made them, because every single choice is new. Even if you choose the same thing you’ve chosen before, it’s a new moment, the world around you is changing every minute, and you change too.
Sometimes, if I need to play a scene which requires me to cry, I’ll play “Video Games” by Lana del Rey, and put myself in the shoes of my 97 year-old self. And I look back on all the memories in my life, all the people, all the experiences, all the different places I’ve been. People can drive me absolutely crazy sometimes, most of all myself, but the truth is, life is the most beautiful gift of all.
Sometimes I can’t wait to die. To be released from all the confusion, pain, and uncertainty of this unfair world. Then I see movies like TFIOS… Or I listen to a great song… Or I see children playing, and I’m reminded of how unbelievably beautiful life is. I’m reminded of how we all wish to be remembered for something beautiful, even if it’s just by one person.
I guess my promise to myself after today is to remember the world and people as a beautiful place. No matter how much tragedy, injustices, acts of terrorism, and violence occur, I will not let my awareness of those things overshadow everything that makes life great. All we have in this life is choice. You can blame it on Eve if you choose to. But I believe that choice is what keeps life exciting, interesting, and mysterious. None of us would be here if it wasn’t for freedom of choice, or will, if you will. I choose to see beauty in everything because anything else is just unbearable.
Perhaps the fault in our stars is not that we lose things that we love, but that we fail to express how deeply we love or value something/someone until it is lost. So in case this is the last Tumblr blog I write before I die, I love life on Earth. It is a beautiful privilege to live here and witness all the different people, stories, plants, animals, music, art, triumphs, tragedies. I may not even know you, but I know that you were born from the same magical stardust we all come from. And that makes you unique, beautiful, memorable.
I don’t know if I’ve lived many lifetimes before this one, but this life is, by far, the best one.
if i have learned anything at twenty three years of age, it is to be endlessly and always OPEN. life will give you a million reasons to test this, but fight hard, fight with everything you got to always remain open to possibilities. im in constant flux, but i can tell you, the less i resist, the…
NO BUT LIKE I need Chef Carl Casper to be my personal chef. On the daily. K thanks.
Oh, and do yourself a favor and go see Chef in theaters now!
Baby, I’m howlin’ for you.
I’m at work right now and everyone is asking why I’m laughing so hard. Send help.
they look weirdly like really big semi-bipedal dogs
It is time to invest our money in renewables, and to put an end to fracking altogether. The long term effects of fracking have not been assessed, as we are the first generation, guinea pigs if you will, to put this practice to use. We already know it takes 1-8 million gallonsto complete each fracking job. Aren’t ‘They’ telling us to “Stop watering your lawns, conserve water, nearly a billion people on the planet don’t have access to clean, safe water!” And yet, they see absolutely no problem with fracking. They’ve even gone so far as to say this is a “natural” way to acquire “natural” gas. What is natural about injecting fluid into the ground at a high pressure in order to fracture shale rocks to release gas?
And this fluid isn’t just water… Every time the Earth is fracked, lead, uranium, mercury, ethylene glycol, radium, hydrochloric acid, formaldehyde, methanol, and up to 600 other carcinogens are injected into the Earth. I’m sorry, but doesn’t this sound like we’re turning the entire EARTH into an ATOMIC WEAPON OF MASS DESTRUCTION?
Now, I will say, there is an end for everything. And maybe the mother in me is witnessing all of this happening and is feeling a deep, deep pang of grief and sorrow that this is how life on Earth is ending. I literally feel like a mother watching her daughter being drugged, abused, raped, and slowly lethally injected, by a money-grubbing, power hungry, idiot of a man, with nothing to do but keep telling her, “This isn’t you! You can still turn things around! Let’s go to rehab, I’ll help you get better with the help of my friends!” But my little girl is lost in a world of illusion. She has forgotten how beautiful she is, and thus has forgotten that her own life is worth fighting for…
Why can’t we use our time on Earth to make it a better, healthier, safer place to live? I know all things must pass. I know I will die someday, as will all others. But let us not be fooled. We humans are creators, which means we are also destroyers. And maybe I just need to let go of the hope that life on Earth will continue much longer. Because at the rate at which we’re going, the human race, and the most likely every other species inhabiting Earth will soon be extinct.
Until then… I’m choosing which side I’m on. I’m for preserving this planet. I’m for learning how to make this planet a better place to live. I’m forgiving those who oppose my beliefs, but I won’t stop fighting for what I believe in. Because what I’ve learned from my parents’ love is that you invest your life in life. You invest your life in love. You invest whatever health, money, power, strength you have into preserving, protecting, appreciating, caring for, raising, and respecting what you’ve been blessed with. I’ve been blessed with an amazingly beautiful life. I’m constantly surrounded by beautiful, talented, hard-working, fun-loving people, full of potential and dreams. I have the best family. I have the best dogs a girl could ask for. I have so many talents and gifts… and all of these things have been given to me. On some sub-conscious level I may have asked for them, but the point is that they were given to me. By some grace of the universe, I have them. I won’t have them someday. But while I do, I will love and cherish them. While we have this Earth, let’s love and cherish it and one another!
With love & good madness,
A stark new report seeks to cut through confusion and awaken the public to the urgency of the dangers of global warming.
Available on #Netflix, #Tapped documentary highlights the terrifying truths about the bottled water industry, and the quality of our water supply in America. Water is a world issue that does not discriminate against race, religion, sexual orientation, gender, or social economic class. We have to WAKE UP. Please reblog this to your followers, change will not come from those making millions off of anything, it must come from the people. Most of us just go to work, come home, and survive behind a screen. Most people aren’t even aware of what it means to be alive. But you are alive. And you have a responsibility to your planet, to your fellow human beings, to all beings that inhabit the earth, to your creator, and to yourself, to WAKE UP. Start living consciously and get involved in something that actually matters. Money will not save us. Petroleum will not save us. Your employers will not save you.
I know there are a lot of people counting on Jesus to come back at just the right moment, when we’ve blown everything to hell, hoping we’ll be absolved of all the damaged we’ve incurred on this beautiful Earth we were blessed with. But what if God is trying to work through people? There is a conscious community of people who are trying to wake the rest of the world up, to get people out of the cycle of self-absorbed, money-driven, habitual living, and bring the focus back to the reason we’re here in the first place: To remember what it means to truly love, nurture and care for something.
Earth is a special living being. She has provided us with everything we’ve ever needed, and continues to. But we are raping her. We continue to disrespect her and all her beautiful creatures. I am pleading you to get out of your own way, stop letting yourself be distracted by the melodramatic story lines in your life, and bring your focus back to why you came here in this lifetime. We have the opportunity to heal the world right now. But like all real healing, it has to come from a place within us. The fire is within us. It has to matter to us, and we have to believe that we have what it takes to change things. We have to be brave, and we have to have faith in each other, instead of those who employ us, those who don’t actually care about anything or anyone other than making profit for themselves.
This doesn’t mean you have to quit your job tomorrow. Just start out by talking about this with everyone you come across, including your employers! We have to wake each other up, enlighten each other, start raising awareness and come back to reality. We all have the opportunity to be the stars of the greatest reality show of all time. The only question is, do you have the brains, heart, and courage to persevere when the going gets tough, as it inevitably will?
With love and good madness,